This moment is painful yet precious. I wanna write it down, make it seen, and not be easily forgotten.
Some say if you went through enough breakups you won’t find it painful anymore. Some also say if you quit enough jobs you won’t feel any loss anymore. That’s how I realised there can be so much similarity between a wholehearted relationship and a career commitment.
At some point of time, we decided to give it all in to the other person. We exchange bit by bit of ourselves everyday, witness each other’s changes and growth overtime. After enough time we know exactly what made both of us who we are today, and we remember every bit of details that has led us here. However for some reason (which doesn’t matter) we decided to part our ways. From this moment onwards our future enters the unknown. All that is left is to watch the other person getting more distant and to deal with the emptiness left behind.
The burning emptiness of time and space makes me feel lost; I can’t keep my focus. My stomach feels unsettled, like something is stuck there suffocating, which also takes away any sense of hunger (good time to lose weight). I constantly need to be accompanied and drink alcohol. Tears struck unexpectedly. There is an urge to reconnect to the past that needs to be…
